Sometimes I Do My Head In

I've added Shapely Prose to my blog roll. I can't remember how I found it, I think I was searching on body image or something similar.

Anyway, I've really enjoyed reading the various entries, so I added it. And then I had an horrible reaction. I felt the need to explain why I have added it. So I thought about why.

It comes down to this, I'm happy for you if you're happy with you. I don't have issues with other peoples weight. I do have an issue with mine. So you could even say I'm envious of those you can accept their body, what ever size, who are happy to be healthy and not worry about shit as superficial as weight. There's no "I need to bitch at/about you 'cause I'm insecure" here, it's more like "Why can't I be like you ?", in a longing, whiny kinda way.

I accept that health and weight are not necessarily related. They can be, like my hangover and the need for pizza, but it's not automatic, sometimes all I want it a big bowl of fruit. And water. Lots of water. Weight and health can be related, and that's under and over. Nobody is ever gonna convince me that starving yourself to be thin is even close to healthy.

I hope I'm not biased, rude, ignorant or intentionally hurtful about weight but when you start to think about it and your attitude to it, you start to second guess yourself. Or at least I do. One thing I learned from Shapely Prose was that I need to watch I what I say about my self image issues to other people. While I might be targeting the criticism at myself, other people can be hurt by it. It's unintentional but that doesn't excuse it.

Edit : Is fat acceptance an acceptable term ? Should that be body acceptance ? I have no idea. Arrrrgggghhhhh. I don't know what the terms of reference are.

Edit, the second: What does it say about me that I even posted this ? I have never explained any other blog on my roll. Does this mean I should remove this post as it is inherently biased ? Or that I should leave it, and further examine the reasons for it ?